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  Cursed Bunny

  BORA CHUNG

  Translated by Anton Hur

  This translation first published by Honford Star 2021

  honfordstar.com

  Translation copyright © Anton Hur 2021

  All rights reserved

  The moral right of the translator and editors has been asserted.

  저주 토끼 (CURSED BUNNY)

  by 정보라 (Bora Chung)

  Copyright © Bora Chung 2017

  All rights reserved

  Originally published in Korea by Arzak in 2017

  ISBN (paperback): 978-1-9162771-8-2

  ISBN (ebook): 978-1-9162771-9-9

  A catalogue record for this book is available from the British Library.

  Cover design by Choi Jaehoon/werkgraphic.com

  Typeset by Honford Star

  This book is published with the support of the

  Literature Translation Institute of Korea (lti Korea).

  Contents

  The Head

  The Embodiment

  Cursed Bunny

  The Frozen Finger

  Snare

  Goodbye, My Love

  Scars

  Home Sweet Home

  Ruler of the Winds and Sands

  Reunion

  The Head

  She was about to flush the toilet.

  “Mother?”

  She looked back. There was a head popping out of the toilet, calling for her.

  “Mother?”

  The woman looked at it for a moment. Then, she flushed the toilet. The head disappeared in a rush of water.

  She left the bathroom.

  A few days later, she met the head again in the bathroom.

  “Mother!”

  The woman reached to flush the toilet again. The head sputtered, “N-no, just a minute …”

  The woman stayed her hand and looked down at the head in the toilet.

  It was probably more accurate to refer to it as “a thing that vaguely looked like a head” than an actual head. It was about two-thirds the size of an adult’s head and resembled a lump of carelessly slapped-together yellow and grey clay, with a few scattered clumps of wet hair. No ears, no eyebrows. Two slits for eyes so narrow that she couldn’t tell if its eyes were open or closed. The crushed mound of flesh that was meant to be its nose. The mouth was also a lipless slit. This slit was awkwardly opening and closing as it talked to her, its strained speech mixed with the gurgling of a person drowning, making it difficult to understand.

  “What in bloody hell are you?” the woman demanded.

  “I call myself the head,” the head replied.

  “You would, obviously,” the woman said, “but why are you in my toilet? And why are you calling me ‘Mother’?”

  The head strained as it formed unpracticed speech with its lipless mouth. “My body was created with the things you dumped down the toilet, like your fallen-out hair and feces and toilet paper you used to wipe your behind.”

  The woman became furious. “I never gave the likes of you any permission to live in my toilet. I never even created you in the first place, so stop calling me ‘mommy.’ Leave before I call the exterminators.”

  “I only want so little,” the head hastily added, “I’m only asking that you keep dumping your body waste in the toilet so I can finish creating the rest of my body. Then I’ll go far away from here and live by my own means. So please, just keep using the toilet like you always have.”

  “This is my toilet,” the woman said coldly, “so of course I’m going to use it like I always have. But I can’t bear to think of a creature like you living in it. Finishing your body is none of my concern. I don’t care what you do, and I’d appreciate it if you stopped appearing.”

  The head disappeared into the toilet.

  But the head kept reappearing.

  After a flush, it would peer over the toilet seat and stare at the woman as she washed her hands. Whenever the woman felt like she was being watched, her eyes would dart to the toilet and lock gazes with its hard-to-tell-if-they-were-open eye slits. The mashed-up face seemed to be trying to create an expression, but it was impossible to tell what of. The head quickly disappeared down the toilet whenever she approached. The woman would then slam down the lid, flush, glare at the toilet for a while, and leave.

  One day, the woman had used the toilet like always, flushed the bowl, and was washing her hands. The head appeared in the toilet behind her, as it normally did. The woman stared at it for a while through the mirror. The head stared back. The mashed-up face underneath the irregular clumps of hair would’ve normally been yellow and gray, but now it was oddly red.

  The woman remembered she was having her period.

  “Your color looks different,” she said to the head. “Does it have anything to do with the state of my own body?”

  The head replied, “Mother, the state of your body has a direct effect on my appearance. This is because my entire existence depends on you.”

  The woman took off her underwear and sanitary pad. She stuck the pad smeared with her menstrual blood on the head’s face and shoved it down the toilet. She flushed.

  The head and the pad swirled around the bowl and vanished into the dark hole. She washed her hands. Then, she vomited into the sink. She vomited for a long time, then rinsed the sink and left the bathroom.

  The toilet got clogged. The plumber presented the sanitary pad to her as if it were a trophy and delivered a long lecture about not throwing such things into the toilet.

  She began to keep her toilet lid closed. Whenever she was doing her business, she developed the habit of frequently looking into the bowl. The woman developed constipation.

  One day, just as she was about to close the toilet lid, she caught a glimpse of the head peering out of the hole. She slammed down the lid. She flushed several times. Just as she was about to leave the bathroom, she carefully cracked open the lid. Her eyes met those of the head. It was staring at her from the water. Its hair floated around its face. She shut the lid again. She tried to flush but the water wouldn’t go down.

  The woman told her family about it.

  “It’s not like it’s laying eggs or anything. Why don’t you just leave it alone?”

  And that was all her family said of the matter.

  The woman avoided going to the bathroom at home.

  One day, she saw it at her workplace bathroom. She had flushed the toilet and was washing her hands when she caught sight of, through the mirror, the head peeping out from the toilet in her stall. She quit her job the next day.

  Her constipation worsened. Her bladder became inflamed. The doctor told her she needed to make regular visits to the bathroom. But the thought of something lurking below where she did her business, waiting to eat her defecations, made going to any bathroom unbearable.

  The inflammation and constipation never really went away.

  Now that she had quit her job, her family suggested she might as well find a husband. She went on a date set up by a matchmaker recommended by her mother. The man was an ordinary office worker at a trading company. He said his dream was to marry a nice woman, have children, and live happily ever after. He seemed unassuming and dependable, albeit unimaginative. Sitting before this strange man, she couldn’t help being nervous about the bathroom situation. The man misconstrued her distracted fidgeting. He said, “My ideal woman is shy and demure. It’s hard to find a girl like you who’s shy in front of a man these days.”

  The man was so enamored and enthusiastic about the match that they were engaged three months later and wedded in another three.

  Now she was worried about the honeymoon. Thankfully, the head didn’t appear on the trip. The first thing she checked after moving into her new home with her hu
sband was the toilet. There was nothing inside. Life in her new home brought some relief to her bladder inflammation and constipation. Days had no highs or lows, weren’t particularly good or bad, and she thought herself more or less content. In the whirlwind of adjusting to her new life, she found herself thinking less and less about the head. Soon, she had a child and forgot about the head completely.

  It was shortly after the birth of her child when the head reappeared in her life. She had been bathing the little one in a baby basin.

  “Mother.”

  She almost drowned her child by accident.

  The head’s head had now grown to about the size of an average adult’s. The yellow and gray mashed-up clay lump form was the same, but its eyes were a little bigger so she could now make out its blinking, and something that resembled lips was attached to its mouth. There were mounds of flesh for ears that looked like they’d been carelessly stuck on either side of its face, and beneath its barely discernible chin was a new band of flesh that seemed to be the beginnings of a neck.

  “Mother, is that child your daughter?”

  The woman sputtered, “How is it that you have reappeared before me? Who told you where we were?”

  The head replied, “Your defecations are a part of me, so I will always know where you are.”

  The head’s words displeased the woman. She hissed, “I told you to go away. How dare you reappear calling me ‘Mother’! It’s none of your concern whose child this is! But fine, this is my child. She is the only one in this world who may call me ‘Mother.’ Now, be gone. I said, be gone!” The child started to wail.

  The head said, “I may have been birthed a different way from that child, but I, too, am your creation, Mother.”

  “Did I not say that I never created the likes of you? I told you to be gone. If you refuse, I shall do whatever it takes to find and destroy you!”

  She slammed down the toilet lid and flushed. Then, she consoled her crying child and wiped off the remaining soap suds.

  Once the head came back into her life, it kept reappearing like a bad rash. She could feel it staring at her from behind after she had flushed and was washing her hands. She could see something yellow and gray in the corner of her eye, but when she quickly turned to look, it was gone, leaving only a few tell-tale strands of hair floating in the toilet bowl.

  Her constipation and bladder inflammation returned. More than anything else, she was worried for the child. Was the head jealous of her daughter? Would it bully the child? Just the thought of the child glimpsing the head was unbearable. She became nervous whenever the little one wanted to go to the bathroom.

  She clenched her fists. She was going to destroy the head.

  The woman went to the bathroom, did her business, and flushed. She waited for the head to appear as she washed her hands. When a yellow and gray thing slowly rose from the toilet bowl, the woman said in a low voice, “I have something to say to you.”

  She finished washing her hands and crouched down before the toilet so she was eye-to-eye with the head.

  “You are …”

  She hesitated. The head waited.

  She grabbed the head, easily plucked it from the toilet, and wrapped it in a plastic bag. She threw the bag away in a trash can outside. Then, with a light heart, she went back to living her life.

  The reprieve didn’t last long. She was in the bathroom with the child when it happened. The child was now old enough to get on the toilet by herself. Her daughter could pretty much handle the whole process if the woman reminded her of every step, from lowering her underwear, sitting on the toilet and doing her business, wiping her behind, putting on her clothes again, flushing, and washing her hands. However, her daughter wasn’t tall enough to reach the sink yet, so the woman had to hoist her up to the sink to soap her hands. One day, as the woman was doing so, a familiar yellow and gray thing appeared.

  “Mother.”

  The woman turned around and saw the head. Then, she finished rinsing off the suds from the child’s hands, dried them on a towel, and sent her daughter out the bathroom.

  “Mother.”

  “What’s the meaning of this? How are you back?”

  The mouth of the head almost imperceptibly twisted into a sneer. “I begged the janitor who found me to flush me down the toilet.”

  The woman said nothing as she flushed the toilet. The head swirled in the rushing of the water as it disappeared down the dark hole.

  Outside the bathroom, the child was full of questions. She told her child, “That was what we call a ‘head.’ If you see it again, just flush.”

  The head had the gall to appear before her and the child and call her “Mother.” She decided she had to get rid of it once and for all.

  Plucking the head from the toilet again was easy. But just as she was about to wrap it in a plastic bag and throw it out with the garbage, she hesitated. The head could talk. If she threw it out like this, it could ask someone to flush it down the toilet like last time. She had to ensure that it couldn’t talk.

  The woman shoved the head into a small container, which she put in a sunny spot on the veranda. She figured that without water or more defecation, the head would eventually mummify. She couldn’t think of any other way, nor did she care to expend further effort on the issue.

  She cautioned her husband and child to not disturb the container. Her husband had no occasion to go out on the veranda, but her child was curious. Her daughter squirmed with the desire to poke and stare and talk to it. The woman gave the child a harsh scolding and hid the container with the head.

  Her husband received some vacation time, and they went traveling for a few days. When they returned, the woman went to the bathroom. She was washing her hands when something appeared behind her. She turned around. She slammed down the lid of the toilet seat and flushed.

  The woman scolded the child. “You did this, didn’t you! I told you over and over again not to touch it!”

  The child began to cry. Her husband stepped in. “Oh, that thing in the container? It asked me to put it in the toilet, so I did. Why, did I do something wrong?”

  She sighed and told him the whole story.

  Her husband remained nonchalant. “Eh, that’s nothing. Just leave it alone. It’s not like it crawls out of there at night and lays eggs around the house.”

  The woman dreamed she was in a white, tiled room. Suddenly, the head popped out from behind her. The woman turned around in surprise. Then, the head popped out from another direction. It began popping out from everywhere.

  Next to her, her delighted daughter kept pointing at it. “Head! Head!”

  The woman begged her husband for help. He was sitting on her other side reading a newspaper. “Eh, that’s nothing. Just leave it alone.”

  His words bounced against the tiles and chorused off the walls. Leave it alone. That’s nothing. Leave it alone. That’s nothing.

  The lever for the flush was near the ceiling. She reached it with some difficulty and just managed to pull it. Water swirled around her husband, her child, and the head. The woman got sucked into a dark hole along with her still delighted child and her still nonchalantly newspaper-reading husband. She grabbed her child and tried with all her might to escape the whirlpool. A familiar voice spoke in her ear.

  “Mother?”

  She looked down at her child. Upon her daughter’s little body and delicate neck sat the head.

  The shock woke her. She stumbled into the bathroom. She sat in front of the toilet and stared into the pure, flawless white of the bowl, the clear water pooled inside, and the dark hole submerged within. Imagining the thing inside and where that hole led to.

  But ever since she had tried to mummify it, the head no longer appeared. And as time went on, she no longer had nightmares about it. The woman quietly went about her life—cooking for her husband and child, washing the dishes, doing the laundry, cleaning the house, shopping, and generally immersing herself in years comprised of unremarkable, peaceful d
ays. Her husband moved up in his company, no faster or slower than others. The man wasn’t especially gentle or warm, but he did bring home a cake on her or their child’s birthday and placed candles on it. Her child, like everyone else, went to elementary school, then to middle school, and became a high school student. The child’s grades weren’t particularly good or bad. She was cute, but no beauty queen. She was a typical high school student who had trouble getting up in the morning, liked celebrities, and fretted over her pimples in the mirror.

  “Come get breakfast or you’ll be late.”

  “Mom, did you see my uniform necktie?”

  “I hung it on the doorknob of your bedroom. Slow down, you’ll get an upset stomach.”

  “OK. Oh, by the way, I saw a person’s head in the toilet yesterday.”

  “Did you now. What happened?”

  “I just flushed it down the toilet.”

  “Good. More stew?”

  “I’m good. But about that head, I think I’ve seen it before. Is there a way to get rid of it? It’s vile.”

  “Forget about it. Just flush it down again. Are you done?”

  “Yup. See you later.”

  “You’ve packed your lunch?”

  “I did. Bye, Mom.”

  “Have a good day.”

  The door closed.

  Forget about it.

  That’s nothing.

  The woman began clearing the table.

  Her child entered college. Meanwhile, she started noticing wrinkles and sagging skin, and rough patches in places that had once been smooth. She gave her child some lipstick and it suited the girl well, only the child wasn’t a girl anymore but a young lady. The woman rediscovered the contours of her younger face in the familiar-unfamiliar face of her daughter, feeling surprise, pride, love, and jealousy at the same time. When her child straight-permed her hair flat and dyed it purple, the woman stood before a mirror when no one was watching and fiddled with the curls of her “auntie perm,” a tight cap of poodle-like hair that had to be dyed black.

  The woman spent more and more time alone in the house. Her husband had been promoted to the executive level and lived under a mountain of work and her child was also busy with her own life, so the family rarely saw each other during the day. From time to time, her husband came home a little earlier than usual and the two of them spent a quiet evening together, but they had never had a fiery romance to begin with or had much in terms of memories to fall back on. They had spent too much of their marriage in a state of emotional detachment to really start making an effort to be affectionate now. They usually ate dinner in silence, watched some television in silence, and her husband would go to bed first in silence.